I'm just going to go right to point of why i had to write this letter.I am aware that alot is happening right now in your life and it's driving you quite insane.I understand you sometimes don't feel like waking up because you already have an idea how the day is going to be.I'm glad you eventually got to wake up those times because even if no one depends on you,you depend on yourself so it's a good thing you tried making those days work.
I am well aware that sometimes you feel no one cares.You feel you're going through alot and someone should just appreciate that fact and maybe lend a hand of support,you'd like that right? Well,really i'm sorry to burst your bubbles,but the truth is this; YOU'RE ON YOUR WON! Sorry i had to put it that way,but that was the only way i could make it sink in.I'm sure you get it now and that's the whole idea.You should never depend on anybody,unless that person is YOU.Human beings are known to be very unreliable and it'll severely break your heart to depend on them and get disappointed.Trust me,you'd get lots of disappointments if you want to go ahead and be dependent.Here's the advice i have for you though,pretend there's no one,but take the occasional help when it does come.Oh yeah,miracles happen and sometimes the help comes.Funny thing is it even tend to come more when you're not expecting it.
Furthermore,don't and i repeat DON'T ever consider suicide,it's for cowards.Suicide is easy,try taking slow poison and you'd understand what i'm saying.You know what's hard though? Living! Living isn't as easy as Suicide because then you have to face all those things that you're scared of.But you know the sweetest thing though? Whatever it is you're facing would eventually end,if only you'd hold on long enough.Here's one truth; Challenges are scared of Courage.So you trek when your mates are driving,so you stay at home when your mates are up in the VIP doing the things you also would've loved to.So you can't show your younger ones you love them with gifts.So you can't do a whole lot of other stuff,it still isn't a good reason to contemplate suicide.These things are the definition of phase,they won't be there forever,so all you need do is hold on tight.
Lastly,i know you may not be used to this,but you could try it now all thesame.Pray! Yes you heard right,pray.There's a God out there,trust me i know.So talk to him.Guess what? You don't need anything to do that,no candles,no wearing of funny clothing,no killing of goat or ram or fowl,nah...no such thing.What you need do is just kneel down beside you bed and talk to him.Don't know how to go about that? Well here's a clue; Lord Jesus,.......Insert anything you wanna,all your needs,challenges and you'll thank me later.It sounds easy right? Well,it's actually that easy,that's why people tend to take it for-granted.Hold on tight ok,t'll be alright soon,i promise you!