I told you the story about my ex who got married to a guy because she feels it's the best thing to do,thereby sacrificing our relationship.Well,i had accepted my fate and moved on with her in my past and sincerely i expected her to do thesame.I mean,she was the one who sacrificed 'us',right? With my head deep in work yesterday,i was trying very hard to do nothing...hehehehehehe.Sometimes i just sit and surf the net,because i don't have any task to execute and yesterday was one of such times.Anyways,i was busy doing nothing and my phone beeped,i checked to find an sms from my ex.Meanwhile,i was hoping she had forgotten about me,which is what i wanted.But apparently she hasn't,even though some weeks back i sent her a very terrible sms just in a bid to get her off my back because she won't just leave me the hell alone.
However,even after all that transpired,i still wasn't mad at her.I wasn't angry about the fact that she decided she wanted to choose her family over me,i was even making excuses for her which some of my friends said i did because i was blinded by love.But i started getting very pissed slowly,slowly,slowly...with each sms she sent begging me to stay with her even though she's in another man's house.With each sms she sent telling me she loved me and can't live without me.With each calls she put across to me,even though i don't pick them.I just get slowly mad at her.I mean,i was trying to count my losses,i was trying to work out modalities on how to move on with my life and not end up being a horrible person,and there she was trying to make that impossible for me.Slowly,i think i started hating her.I mean,she's there in another man's house as his wife and she's begging me to still be with her,does that sound human? What the hell did she take me for? She of all people knew i have things i don't do no matter what,though i don't call them principles.Granted,we slept together once after she moved in with the guy,but that was because i was messed up,couldn't think not to talk of think straight.I even had a friend of mine who did my thinking for me that period,no kidding! If i wanted to take a step,i ran it by her,if anything comes up,i ask her what she step i should take,it was that bad.But when i was able to put my self together,i fixed my head and started thinking for myself again and that was when i decided it wasn't going to continue.That was when i put a final stop to all the madness.She was the one that messed everything up,she should have considered the fact that i won't be there forever and thus be ready to move on anytime i decide i wanted out,why the hell isn't she moving on then? I guess some people are just out-rightly wicked,or what do you think? There are consequences for actions,if people know this,why do they do things and tend to want to avoid the consequences? Beats me really!
Anyways,back to the sms.She said she was tired of the silence that i should please talk to her.Like i usually do,i didn't even bother to respond to the sms.But that sms further increased the resentment i have towards her.It just gave me the feelings that she never even cared about my well-being even though she almost crushed me.All she had been concerned about was herself.Well,that isn't any of my business,all i want is that she should just leave me the hell alone,is that too big a thing to ask?